Here she is; my very first letter on this new site! And, what better to head it up with, but my very first Empress! This is The Empress card from the very first tarot deck I chose for myself, The Morgan-Greer Tarot. I'd been reading tarot for a while, but this was my first purchase of a deck. I wrapped the cards in a purple scarf, anointed the deck with amber and sandalwood oils, and I kept it in a beautiful hardwood box that had leaves carved on the lid.
I carried that deck with me until 1993 when I moved to Oakland, California with my then, fiance. I left everything behind to be with him. How did he repay me? Oh, lots of terrible ways, but one of his first betrayals was to make sure my cards got "lost" in the move. I later discovered him throwing other precious things of mine away. That was only the beginning of the twisted things he would do to try to control me for years. I had no clue how to be, The Empress Dammit, back then. The Empress Dammit would have put an end to that nonsense, toot sweet!
Life is a series of incarnations. In this one, I'm struggling but I'm also cutting strings as fast as I can. I don't want anyone to get confused and think I could be their puppet. I am an autonomous woman! I have sovereignty. I am aware that this is difficult for some people to accept. This blog has also had several incarnations; on Tumblr, on a personal site, on LiveJournal, on Wordpress and Facebook. Now, it has a home.
I hope, while I am stumbling my way around and sharing what I have learned, that I might help you as well; to navigate your incarnations, cut your strings and feel confident in your path. If we are lucky, this will find you early enough that you can fine tune your bs-o-meter to dump the trolls and silence the brain weasels. I believe in you!
I see you! You are a miracle, a royal miracle! You deserve all the love and blessings. You deserve to always feel safe and at home.
Thank you for being here!
The Empress Dammit!
P.S. Extra love is being sent out through the universe to my brother Michael, wherever you are. You would have been 55 today. I don't know where you are or if you have another incarnation coming, but I hope you are at peace. I'm sad you had more challenges than you could handle. You are missed. I love you!